They say man plans and God laughs. I’ve never believed this more than this past year. Since 2012, God has begun to grow my heart for Haiti, and develop a passion in me for the people here. He has built up this love for Haiti in my heart, that has only grown deeper over the years. After realizing He was calling me to be a missionary here, at the end of every trip, it got harder and harder to say goodbye. It would break my heart to leave, knowing that this was where I was called, all I wanted to do was finally be here.
I graduated college in December of 2019 with a major in environmental sustainability. One of the things on my heart the most was providing the people of Haiti with clean water. This major gave me the knowledge to be able to work on clean water in Haiti. It also gave me the opportunity to explore clean energy, such as solar and wind power, with the hopes of being able to bring that to Haiti, so we no longer had to rely on the generators we normally do for electricity. I was so excited to finally be graduating. I had waited for so long, and now I would finally be able to move to Haiti and do what God was calling me to do. I started raising the funds I needed, and was so blessed to raise double what I needed within a few short months. We began to finalize all the plans for me to leave in March of 2020. And then Covid happened.
As disappointed and heartbroken as I was to have to push back my departure, I also felt a peculiar peace about it, that I can only attribute to God’s timing. We tried to replan my trip multiple times throughout 2020 and 2021, but we were always held up. I know now that God was laughing, not in a menacing way, but in the way a mother laughs at a child trying to do something difficult on their own for the first time. He was making me wait, He knew he had the perfect timing for me to go, and that I would have to listen to Him.
Although 2020 is talked about as a “horrible year” I can genuinely say I am grateful for it. Not for the illness and loss, my hearts breaks over that, but I am so thankful for the extra year in America. God provided so many opportunities throughout 2020 for me to meet and learn from other missionaries, sent back to the US because of Covid. He provided us with more time to plan, and learn, and be even more prepared for my departure. He taught me patience, and to appreciate the beauty and peace that His perfect timing can bring. Most of all, it gave me irreplaceable time with my family. There is no other situation in life besides a pandemic that would’ve given me the opportunity to spend so much time with them, and make so many memories before I left. And I am forever grateful for that time.
I am so thankful for God’s timing. I am so thankful for Him making me wait, because the peace I feel now far surpasses what peace I thought I had a year ago. He has made sure to offer me numerous signs this time around that this is His perfect timing, and this is when he wants me to be in Haiti. So many things lined up so perfectly, too many things for them to just be a coincidence. He has now shown me in a way so clearly that there is no room for doubt.
I landed in Haiti, 4 days ago, almost exactly a year after I had planned, but exactly in time with God’s plan. I feel His peace surrounding me in everything I do here. I know I am exactly where God wants me to be, and exactly when he wants me to be here. I am so thankful to finally be in the place my heart has lived for so long, and I am so excited to see all that God has planned for me here.